Saying Sorry

I was at my Beth Moore Bible study yesterday and the topic was generational bondage and on the video that we watch, Beth was talking about prejudice. Somehow, I can't tell you how, but she started talking about saying you're sorry. She said we live in a world where it's so typical to place blame on someone else and tell yourself that you have nothing to be sorry about. She said something about why is it that people can't just look at their friend and say genuinely, "I'm so sorry." I had to really think about that and it made me wonder, why is it that we can't just be genuine and say we're sorry. I say we as in our society, but mostly I'm talking about me.

All of this made me think of a dear dear friend who I have had the privelage to get to know again after several years. She was just saying this last Saturday that there was a time in her life where a heartfelt apology would have been so nice to hear and would have made things so much better at that very moment, but those words were never heard. And still have not been heard after a year. It not only ruins that very specific moment, but also has the possibility to ruin many many more moments after that between those two people. I have decided two things since watching that Beth Moore video. First of all, I will not be a person who does not say "I'm sorry." I will say it when I am guilty of doing something that needs apologizing for and I will say it when a friend is having a hard time and needs to hear it when they are going through a difficult time. The second thing is that I will say it as genuinely as my heart will let me. If words can't be spoken genuinely, then maybe they shouldn't be spoken. Well, that's my little rant for today.

On a lighter note, Dan and I are doing very well. Things have been busy, but oh so good! Dan made me watch a video on Stalin last night because he was writing a video guide for his students. He said I needed to watch it so that I could be more educated on history. I disagreed, but watched it anyway and was surprised how interesting it was. I definitely did not like Stalin. Now there's a man who needed to apologize to a LOT of people... but it is too late for him. Bet he's sorry now.